Jose Rubiano
I met you for the first time thanks to you and your Trance productions. Years later, I never expected to meet you again and such a BRILLIANT ARTIST.
This album not only represents the producer herself and her perseverance in music, but this album also represents what music means to you.
Congratulations on such an excellent one!
Nothing's as it seems
Quit living your dreams
Dismantle the machines
and lose your self-esteem
Toss me and turn
Got no lessons to learn
I don't know why I am so dependent
My longings and yearns
They will never return
It's time for being insurgent
(I can't move)
I can't move on
I can barely move on
I can't move on
I can barely move on
I can't move on
I can barely move on
I can't move on
I can barely move on
(I can't move)
I can't move on
I can barely move on
I can't move on
I can barely move on
(wrench in the works)
I can't move on
I can barely move on
I can't move
I can't move
I don't know why I can't move!
Stay on alert
Make me over-exert
Drop your weapons, desert
You threw a wrench in the works
Rave yourself hoarse
I am strung with remorse
You make me feel inconvenient
Don't dry up my source
Gather my inner force
I want to be disobedient
(I can't move)
I can't move on
I can barely move on
I can't move on
I can barely move on
I can't move on
I can barely move on
I can't move on
I can barely move on
(I can't move)
I can't move on
I can barely move on
I can't move on
I can barely move on
(wrench in the works)
I can't move on
I can barely move on
I can't move
I can't move
I don't know why I can't move!
Looking for a glimpse of fire
Eyes burning with desire
When all warriors cross their blades
You're ready for the raids
Bastards climbing up the walls
They heed the final call
Archers firing into night
Call fellows to unite
This is your last turn
Let the ashes burn
Pyromancer!
Cloven hooves pervade the walls
As men fall into brawls
Ascent of fire on dried grass
Listen to that swelling brass
The brotherhood fulfills its aims
As foes burn down in flames
Ashes are all that remains
The smell of our disdain
This is your last turn
Let the ashes burn
Pyromancer!
This is your last turn
Let the ashes burn
Pyromancer!
Am I a man or a mouse?
I can never tell
Full of shame, full of doubt,
full of hope as well
Cos you told me tonight
I never put up a fight
Now I‘m free
Yeah, I see what I gotta to do
Every day and night
I‘m gonna fight for you
Every day and night
I‘m gonna fight for you
Turn the page, make a change
It‘s a new me
Apply the flame to the pain
It‘s just chemistry
I am blinded by the light
If this is wrong I don‘t wanna be right
Now I‘m here, no fear
Gonna break through
Cause every day and night
I‘m gonna fight for you
Every day and night
I‘m gonna fight for you
Don‘t you know
I‘m gonna fight for you
Yeah, don‘t you know
I‘m gonna fight for you
Speaking of evil,
Pride and prejudice
You feel like a victim
is there a point that we miss?
I do not lack of power
Fighting in free cover
I know that I can‘t take it no more
So sore!
Weight
I lifted off my shoulders
But wait
I won‘t crawl in pain again!
Weight
I‘m stronger and bolder now
No hurt, no more!
No more!
You taught how to be
And how I should behave
Words of wisdom
Were digging my own grave
I do not lack of power
Fighting in free cover
I know that I can‘t take it no more
So sore!
Weight
I lifted off my shoulders
But wait
I won‘t crawl in pain again!
Weight
I‘m stronger and bolder now
No hurt, no more!
No more! No more!
Weight
I lifted off my shoulders
But wait
I won‘t crawl in pain again!
Weight
I‘m stronger and bolder now
No hurt, no more!
Just got home and it’s early morn'
Fighting sleep and a thunderstorm
Get my way out from traffic horns
I can’t stop thinking about you
Went inside and poured a drink
Left it there by the sink
Your final words made me almost fall
As I began to process it all
I’m going my way
Testing out my pair of wings
On heavy clouds, yeah
Looking for some other day
I’m going my way
Testing out my pair of wings
On heavy clouds, yeah
Looking for some other day
Through half closed eyes I saw your face
With all our friends, in all those places
I should feel free and not disgraced
as our time is bent and broken
I can’t think about tomorrow
Or what you said in spite
I wish that I could finally borrow
Another body tonight
I’m going my way
Testing out my pair of wings
On heavy clouds, yeah
Looking for some other day
I’m going my way
Testing out my pair of wings
On heavy clouds, yeah
Looking for some other day
Wanna scream out
Wanna shout loud
Wanna scream out
wanna shout loud
I want to regain my sanity
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Feels like I'm going my way
Feels like I'm going my way
I’m going my way
Testing my pair of wings
On heavy clouds, yeah
Looking for some other day
I’m going my way
Testing my pair of wings
On heavy clouds, yeah
Looking for some other day
Promises sweet promises
You begged me to hold on
Then without a warning you walked away
You were gone
Time, it took some time
To feel alive feel strong
Then you came back with those famous excuses
I believed you I was so wrong
Baby I can’t do this anymore
There’s nothing left to spend
I could never be more sure
That I won’t be your dead end
I promise you…
Oh I believe in miracles
And turning water into wine
But I’m wise to your false prophecy
Not even you can turn back time
The years have shown me how to read
The danger in your eyes
The open road ahead of me
Every mile is mine
Baby I can’t do this anymore
There’s nothing left to spend
I could never be more sure
That I won’t be your dead end
I promise you…
I promise you…
I promise you…
I promise you…
People don't believe in things
They've never seen or never heard before
They cry, they have fear
But they never ever will admit it openly
Though they're rich, they are poor
Though they're accompanied, they're still fools
In their minds they sit beneath a crown
Of importance and wealth while they drown
I am lost, incomplete
But I still keep on being their angel in jeans
Cut my wings, drop me out
but I still keep on being it without doubt
I am lost, incomplete
But I still keep on being their angel in jeans
Cut my wings, drop me out
But I still keep on being it without doubt
They only catch a glimpse of life
When they stare at somebody who is suffering
They won't realize
The one they stare at could be their effigy
People think, I have wings
That I fly and don't exist
But I sit and live in their midst
And doubt what they concede as true
I am lost, incomplete
But I still keep on being their angel in jeans
Cut my wings, drop me out
but I still keep on being it without doubt
I am lost, incomplete
But I still keep on being their angel in jeans
Cut my wings, drop me out
But I still keep on being it without doubt
You were such a shy guy
but I can't keep watching you cry
I'm the only one who knows your truth
and the minds that you bemused
Narrator of so many lies
In fear of dropping your disguise
cause you look like your ego who died
A.L.E.X.
All lies excused with ecstasy
still drowning in your fantasy
Are you searching for an answer
or for a better...
A.L.E.X.
All lies excused with ecstasy
your life has been a misery
Don't keep reminding those years
where you've been rejected
You were such a silly boy
but they treated you like a toy
This was the reason for your weakness
shammed coolness turned to bleakness
Narrator of a broken dream
Your hope is vanishing like steam
See your blue eyes turning dark and grey
All lies excused with ecstasy
There's more in life than you have seen
Why have you stabbed the one you've been
A.L.E.X.
All lies excused with ecstasy
your life has been a misery
Don't keep reminding those years
where you've been rejected
Still drowning in despair
waiting for someone to care
I said that you’d believe in you
but you surrender
A.L.E.X
Why don't you leave your lies
release yourself from your disguise
There are so many things that
you can do without
A.L.E.X.
All lies excused with ecstasy
still drowning in your fantasy
Are you searching for an answer
or for a better...
A.L.E.X
All lies excused with ecstasy
life needn't be a misery
Should I tell you how I feel?
Or keep this fantasy going?
Should I believe that we‘re in love
Live in the never knowing?
Does your heart skip a beat?
Do you think of someone else?
Am I too young to be your man
Too soon for wedding bells?
Don‘t tell me if it hurts
Don‘t tell me if it‘s true
Don‘t tell me anything
Unless you love me
If it hurts
Don‘t tell me if it‘s true
Don‘t tell me anything
Unless you want it too
I crave the smile on your lips
When I am cracking a joke
I love you looking at my way
Even when you won‘t no
I feel that giggle in my chest
When words caught up in my throat
I think you see me as a friend
I pray to God that you don‘t
Don‘t tell me if it hurts
Don‘t tell me if it‘s true
Don‘t tell me anything
Unless you love me
If it hurts
Don‘t tell me if it‘s true
Don‘t tell me anything
Unless you want it too
I‘m under a spell
I cast upon myself
I want flesh and blood
And no imagination
The only way to escape
Is to risk it all
Don‘t tell me if it hurts
Don‘t tell me if it‘s true
Don‘t tell me anything
Unless you love me
If it hurts
Don‘t tell me if it‘s true
Don‘t tell me anything
Unless you want it too
(Don‘t tell me if it hurts)
(No no, no no)
(Don‘t tell me if it hurts)
(No no, no no no)
Come whatever may
In colourful skies seeing nothing but grey
Getting drawn into a huge maelstrom
Of boredom and soredom
Becoming someone I‘m not
Hiding myself, don‘t show what I got
Bursting in tears, there‘s nothing but fears
Expecting the end of my career
Where does it end?
When all hope is gone
And my friends mean nothing to me
Where does it end?
When everything‘s done
There‘s no place where I wanted to be
When does it end?
Yeah, I want to give it a fuck
Dwelling in thoughts is where I am stuck
Imaginations gaining odd dynamics
In panic, God dammit!
I think I’m gonna go nuts
Sabotaging myself and losing the guts
Bursting in tears, there‘s nothing but fears
I‘m feeling the urge to disappear
Where does it end?
When all hope is gone
And my friends mean nothing to me
Where does it end?
When everything‘s done
There‘s no place where I wanted to be
When does it end?
No relation to reality
Losing faith in humanity
I fight against insanity
Nowhere to hide
I am frozen inside
I am scared
I can‘t make it right
I want you to devastate
The nightmare I create
I want you to get it straight
I‘m still afraid
NO! NO! NO!
CAN‘T LET GO!
Where does it end?
When all hope is gone
And my friends mean nothing to me
Where does it end?
When everything‘s done
There‘s no place where I wanted to be
When does it end?
Breathe, in disbelief,
That there should be
Someone like you
Breathe, I know you’ll see
Just what I see
The fire that burns in you
Fight, another night
At your command,
No one but me
Breathe and take the day
In your own way
It’s not a game
Free, I feel so free,
To stand beside
Someone like you
Stand, and understand
What stars have planned
For none but you
Lead triumphantly
Rise up and
Then you will find
Just who you will be
Triumphantly
Rise up and
Then you will see just who you are
I’m still not giving up
I’m still not giving up
I’m still not giving up
Not giving up on you
Dear lady,
What casts this light on you?
Dear lady,
Empowered by the moon
Lead triumphantly
Rise up and
Then you will find
Just who you will be
Triumphantly
Rise up and
Then you will see
You were meant to
Lead triumphantly
Rise up and
Then you will find
Just who you will be
Triumphantly
Rise up and
Then you will see
Just who you are
about
After 18 years of producing electronic music, Nadine de Macedo challenges herself as songwriter and composer for handmade music. "Going My Way" is a wild ride through many different genres in between pop, rock and metal. The album has been recorded as online collaborations with 23 musicians from all over the world. Thank you so much for participating in this huge project.
credits
released July 1, 2022
Genres: Alternative Rock, Alternative Metal, Ballad Pop, Classic Rock, Folk Metal, Indie Pop, Nu Metal, Pop, Pop Rock, Progressive Metal
Composition: Nadine de Macedo (all songs)
Production: Nadine de Macedo (all songs)
Arrangement: Nadine de Macedo (all songs), Chad Lenig (track 01), I AM MEADOWS (track 09)
Programming: Nadine de Macedo (all songs exept 01, 05), I AM MEADOWS (track 09)
Lyrics: Nadine de Macedo (all songs except 03, 05, 09, 11), David Taro (track 03), Michael Karns (track 05), Kelly Best (track 06), Jason Challis (track 06), Nate Gerry (track 09), Christopher Matthew Smith (track 11)
Vocals: Chad Lenig (track 01), Jordan Hirsch (track 02), David Taro (track 03, 10), Gammafied (track 04), Michael Karns (track 05), Kelly Best (track 06), Caitlin Sigler (track 07), Roman Wreden (track 08), I AM MEADOWS (track 09, 12), Christopher Matthew Smith (track 11), Kate Stanton (track 12), Rich Brewer (track 12)
Additional songwriting, solo: Chad Lenig (track 01), Ben Kohr (track 02), David Taro (track 03), Simon Ashby (track 03), Jason Challis (track 04, 06, 12), Kelly Best (track 06), Garrett Kirby (track 05), Alex Pinheiro (track 08), I AM MEADOWS (track 09), Christopher Matthew Smith (track 11), DJ Clark (track 11)
Guitars: Chad Lenig (track 01), Simon Ashby (track 02, 03), Jason Challis (track 04, 06, 12), Garrett Kirby (track 05, 07), Alex Pinheiro (track 08), I AM MEADOWS (track 09), Stefan Hartl (track 10), DJ Clark (track 11)
Mandolin: Stephan Kösters (track 02)
Chapman Stick: Chris Harris (track 03)
Bass: Chad Lenig (track 01, 08), Stephan Kösters (track 02), Jason Challis (track 04, 06, 12), Robert Cooperider (track 05), I AM MEADOWS (track 09)
Drums: Chad Lenig (track 01, 08), Robert Cooperider (track 05)
Keys: Nadine de Macedo (all songs exept 01, 03), Chad Lenig (track 01), Jason Challis (track 06), Rich Brewer (track 12)
Design, Illustration: Nadine de Macedo
Photography: Dan Burton, Dan Cristian, Sergey Gorbachev, Vicki Hamilton, Katerina Kerdi, Andrew Neel, Rene Rauschenberger, Anthony Tran, Roman Wreden, Pan Xiaozhen
Please check individual song pages or booklet for detailed credits.
Dark bedroom pop uses sounds ranging from the childlike to the industrial to conjure a dark, inward looking atmosphere. Bandcamp New & Notable Mar 19, 2020
The whole album is a compelling adventure - DJKA is able to summon a true vision and to really tell a story with his music. This work is or rare quality and really a pleasure to listen to over and over. demiurgoproject
